this evening

well thats another evening gone
I have chatted on msn to forest, we chatted about mundane, we chatted about sex, we chatted about what I want and how to get it. we talked about Oxo (forest called him a git ......I nearly told him that hes no better.........I did say ........most men are). Oxo wanted me to drop everything and go to him.........hes feeling horny.........he has a day off work tomorrow..............he offered me bacon and eggs for breakfast..........it didn't matter to him that I was in the middle of writing about cancer and didn't want to stop half way through. I told him no so he logged off without even saying goodnight. He does that!! I even expect it now.
I chatted to another man who I made friends with through the dating site. Hes feeling sorry for himself (just for a change). funny he logged off when he was complaining and I said .......no but we survive to live another day. Perhaps I hit a nerve.
There have been a few emails exchanged with Neptune............its odd we seem to have gone back to emails through the dating site.......I wonder why he isn't chatting on msn anymore.
Oh and SF called to give the boys some more cakes and buns etc (end of date food) and gave me a whopping £100 maintenace for the boys for the next month. I shall try to make it last!!

this morning I read the latest post on evening's blog, she had to go to hospital today (she is a breast cancer survivor). I couldn't stop thinking about her post all day so now I have written a post about it. Over recent months I have come to know several women bloggers who have had breast cancer, I can't identify with them over the surgery but the impact of cancer is something I do know about.

oh and I found a blogger who was hiding........I wasn't looking, I figured that if he really wanted me to read his blog he would tell me where to go to find it. If he didn't want to tell me then I wouldn't bother searching. But I stumbled across it while reading other blogs.

Now it is past midnight and I realise that yet again I forgot to have dinner.

thanx for telling me about me

here are my replies to those who did the Tell me about me post

first off was Fat Controller

Good Meme! I'm going to pinch it!
1. I READ Lady in Red. just like a book
2. Lady in Red is UNIQUE the world couldn't cope with two of us
3. If I were alone in a room with Lady in Red, I would SLIDE ONE HAND AROUND THE BACK OF HER NECK, DRAW HER CLOSER (AND SEE WHERE THINGS GO FROM THERE) hmm well my neck connects my head to my torso so not too many options there ;-)
4. I think Lady in Red should GET A MEDAL is it made of chocolate?
5. Lady in Red needs FOREST not any more!
6. I want to MEET Lady in Red. mutual
7. Someday Lady in Red will FIND REAL HAPPINESS that would be good
8. Lady in Red reminds me of THE GOOD TIMES I LEFT BEHIND IN ENGLAND glad its not bad times
9. Without Lady in Red BLOGLAND WOULD BE A DULLER PLACE no more bright red cheeks, hair, lips, nails, clothes, sheets etc
10. My memories of Lady in Red are OF RENDEZVOUS IN TWILIGHT CAR PARKS and some midnight !
11. Lady in Red can be DIFFICULT TO FOLLOW would you like to borrow the map?
12. The worst thing about Lady in Red is THERE ISN'T TIME TO READ IT ALL at least its all in one place now
13. The best thing about Lady in Red is SHE COMMENTS ON MY BLOG! how could I not
14. I am FASCINATED with Lady in Red. awwww shucks
15. One thing I would like to know about Lady in Red is WHETHER SHE KNOWS THE SAME PLACES I KNOW its a big possibility that some of them are known to both of us
16. Lady in Red should go and SPOIL HERSELF ONCE IN A WHILE only that often shucks I was thinking more like every day
17. Lady in Red READS me. and a joy it is too.

Then it was the turn of DJ Kirkby

1. I _like___Lady in Red. I like you too
2. Lady in Red is _a survivor___ I always have been and will continue to be
3. If I were alone in a room with Lady in Red, I would _make her a cup of tea___ white no sugar please
4. I think Lady in Red should __move on from Forest__ forest who ?
5. Lady in Red needs _someone new in her life___ I'm not going to rush out looking
6. I want to _cheer for___ Lady in Red. thank you
7. Someday Lady in Red will _be a proud grandmother___ so long as it isn't too soon
8. Lady in Red reminds me of some one I know____ someone smart I hope
9. Without Lady in Red _blogland would be a duller place___ I do like a little colour ok more than a little
10. My memories of Lady in Red are __her comments on my blog and the fact that we live near each other__ I like your blog its interesting and comfortable even if a little suprising at times.
11. Lady in Red can be __mischevious__ aww theres no fun in being good all the time
12. The worst thing about Lady in Red is _her insecurity about her self worth___ that comes from many years of being told I was worthless but I am learning
13. The best thing about Lady in Red is _that she is a survivor___ I used to have 'I will survive' as my alarm on my phone
14. I am __emailing__with Lady in Red. thank you and I have looked into your suggestions
15. One thing I would like to know about Lady in Red is _why she lets her ex get away with blatent disregard of her monetary requirments___ because you cant get blood out of a stone and I am grateful to get anything from him after nothing for so long
16. Lady in Red should go and _tell him he is pointless___ I would but I don't like to put people down even if they do it to me....why should I lower myself to their level
17. Lady in Red _amuses___me. I do like to bring a smile here and there


Then there was Innocent (many of you won't recognise this name)

1. I sometimes read Lady in Red. I had noticed you are back
2. Lady in Red is shorter than you expect. 5'0"..... how tall should I be?
3. If I were alone in a room with Lady in Red, I would ..well... ????
4. I think Lady in Red should post more photos. you want more photos? what of? I have put more up now
5. Lady in Red needs LOVE doesn't everyone?
6. I want to **** Lady in Red. and this means what ?
7. Someday Lady in Red will be content some days I am already
8. Lady in Red reminds me of dark places. why dark places? is that places in your mind or places without lights?
9. Without Lady in Red it wouldn't be worth getting up in the morning. is this for real ?
10. My memories of Lady in Red are funny. funny crazy or funny hehe?
11. Lady in Red can be quiet. I am always quiet when I am not talking nineteen to the dozen
12. The worst thing about Lady in Red is her timing. I like to be late and it was only 5 minutes!!

13. The best thing about Lady in Red is her outstanding features. being ?? don't be shy
14. I am confused with Lady in Red. you, me and the whole world are confused by me
15. One thing I would like to know about Lady in Red is how does she drink so much. bloody cheek!!
16. Lady in Red should go and lie down. yes I am tired
17. Lady in Red used to read me. its a bit difficult to read you now

Innocent

Hmmm I can honestly hold up my hand and say

I am innocent !!

Ok so I am not totally innocent when it comes to sleeping with a married man or two or three maybe more over the past year

I am not totalLy innocent when it comes to sleeping with more than one man over a short period

I am not totally innocent when it comes to shagging with more than one man at the same time

I am not 100% innocent when it comes to playing with another woman

I am definitely not innocent when it comes to my mind or my sexual activities

BUT I AM INNOCENT WHEN IT COMES TO INNOCENT AND HIS RECENT BLOW JOB

I am not saying he has never asked

I am not saying it will never happen

BUT RIGHT NOW I AM INNOCENT OF GIVING INNOCENT A BLOW JOB RECENTLY

update on you know you want to

yesterday I was chatting to my prospective lover (dark master) who got me thinking about my lady and the knight emails. It transpired during our online chat that he likes blindfolds, bondage and mild cp. I told him about my text messages to JJ who had not replied. dark master said he would like to take the place of JJ and be my dom. We exchanged mobile numbers, and as he said he loves to read erotic writing I emailed him the full version of lady and her knight. Late last night I got text messages from dark master asking about my afternoon adventure. He then went on to say he was deciding if I need to be punished.

This afternoon I was online when I noticed that JJ was there. I said hello to him and we began chatting. He said he had been away. I mentioned my text messages to him. At first he wasnt sure what messages I meant then the penny dropped. He said he hadn't known who was sending them and was too embarrassed to ask. He was very flattered and very horny reading them. He really wanted to know who it was. Now he knows it was me he wishes he had done something about it. we chatted for a while before I had to go out. We are definitely on to do this now. both of us were getting horny just thinking about it.

Later while I was out I got a text from dark master informing me that he had liked my story. this was followed by more text

Like the style, so you wish to be a slut of servitude to the dark master. X

It would be an honour for me to have your dark side to play with. X

How could a humble slut refuse

tonight, well tomorrow morning dark master will begin your journey. Obey his wishes as none compliance will lead to punishment. X

Not long after this I was in the pub with FF when I began getting text messages from 2 men.
one was JJ the other was sailor who is another new prospective lover. I may see him in the next couple of days.

Hi, hope your evening is going well, was just wondering how you would look and feel with your wrists bound behind your back and blindfolded? X JJ

I guess I would be drinking through a straw

Is there anything in particular you like?

Is that in general or have you moved onto the bedroom already?

Both if thats ok.

Anything that doesnt involve pain.
am I sure about that?

I love to give oral very good with my tongue

I would give you a drink if you asked. that is when im not fucking your mouth!

Is that in the pub or after?

drink in the pub, drink and extras after !

sounds good extras!!

yes you know, the bit where you get tied up and used, thats if you want to be that is?

I think that after a very quiet couple of months the action might be hotting up again.

Oh and during this I got a couple of text from Innocent but im not divulging what they said or my reply.........all I will say is that he sure took me by suprise.

I shall possibly see Sailor on thursday. I think I shall also see either or maybe both JJ and dark master very soon too. I had agreed that I would see Innocent for a coffee so that may well be next week now as I am running out of days this week. FF kept telling me that I have great legs and tits, I'm a great kisser and good company and he can't forget that wednesday night which was so wonderful. He really fancies me and wants to make love again. I did say yes. So FF if you are still not sure . I said yes! Somewhere along the line I need to find time to meet Forest who I have been chatting to for about 5 months but not yet met, but I do feel that day is approaching I know he has wanted to all along.

Update

My mother is ill today so we are not doing the rounds of relatives I had expected. Instead I am just going off to see Sailor.