Plutonic or not

I have been thinking about the question of whether or not men and women can be just friends.

My first reaction is yes of course we can. I have a number of friends who are men.

But then I began thinking about it a little closer.

I started thinking about the male friends I have.

After thinking about each one in turn I realised that in the case of my friends I can have male friends without there being anything sexual between us only because my male friends respect me enough not to take advantage of our friendship.

I do believe that it is perfectly possible to have close friends of the opposite sex without there being anything sexual between them. However having examined the friendships I currently have with men are perhaps only plutonic in the sense that I am not sexually attracted to them although I am well aware that they are sexually interested in me. I am also aware that they keep their sexual interest under control out of respect for me.

I was going to say that I am lucky to have friends who respect me enough not to take advantage of me but then again if they didn't have enough regard for me then we wouldn't be friends in the first place.

my battle continues

Before I got distracted by the news I received on Thursday I had intended to write this post about the two sides of me which seem to still be in battle one against the other. The two sides which seem to mean that I cannot as yet reach my goal.

I did think of writing a list of my qualities that I see on each side of the coin that is me. But I don’t think that will work as to me there are not two definite sides to me.

In some ways there are two sides but there is no line drawn between the two. No that’s wrong it isn’t two separate sides more like two extremes of the same side.

On the one hand there is the me that people who know me see. The mother, the colleague, the public persona. On the other hand there is the woman who after many years in the desert has woken up realising that she is just that ‘a woman’ who thoroughly enjoys sex. The public persona and the sexual woman are not two different people but one and the same.

So why is it that my public persona has to hide the sexy woman behind closed doors. The sexual woman in me comes out online and of course when I meet a lover. But it seems that my lovers who obviously find me sexy and witty are not interested in the kind, loving, caring, sensitive person that I am. Even those who I chat to for months before meeting, they get an insight to the rest of me not just the sexual side. I am not interested in men who can talk of nothing but sex. I enjoy sex, I enjoy flirting, I enjoy discussing sex online or by text to an extent but not constantly I get bored if that is all a man can talk about.

After all these months of allowing my sexual side to have free reign as it were I still am not at peace with myself. I have learnt that it is good to enjoy sex (safe sex that is) it has given me a certain freedom to express myself both, physically in bed or where ever but also in my chat with men and some women, but more in my writing. However I still cannot reconcile myself to this being respectable behaviour for the mother of four who has grown up in the society I have. I am still battling in my conscience over whether I am being normal or very immoral.

I have enjoyed my promiscuity of the past year, but have calmed right down now. I am seeing only one man. That however does not mean that I have stopped talking to others. They do all know now that I am only seeing the one man. He however is perhaps the only one who does not realise this. I do have plans to carry out certain lets call them experiments with certain selected others. These I won’t reveal just at the moment. But for the main part he is my sole sexual partner for now. He is the only one I have made love to in the last few months. He does not mind if I see others, he enjoys reading about my escapades in my blog. There is a possibility that as time progresses he and I will swing together with others for 3 or 4 somes. I have been in contact with some others about this.

I have plans to carry out one or two of my fantasies in the not too distant future with a willing partner. We have only to arrange when and where. So if you think that my recent news is going to put me off carrying out our plans you are wrong it only makes it more important that I experience as much as I can while I can. If I can then so can you. You know who you are.

return of the knight

My slut, my Lady love my meek and obedient chattel I shall take my leave of you now with heavy heart because having seen your beautiful maidenhead it is all I can do to stop myself coming to you secretly at the dead of night to ravish your beautiful ample body and relish in your creative and promiscuous mind .......................... I wish to do things to you that will fill your body with joy and have you give it to me unreservedly. It is mine now in my mind and I shall enjoy you with a passion so devine so loving so creative so vulgar so debased that should you know it you would think you were in heaven with all your senses heightened to such degree, just to look into my eyes would make you climax so intensely it would be as Niagara falls covering us both ................... Your knowing master Knight of your body and soul Sir ***** now wishing you joyous festivities, but desperate to meet you once again to fuck you mind and body with intensity :-x

My Lady slut **** Your Knight of tarnished armour wishes you an extremely happy and rewarding new year on every level imaginable. I trust your christmas was an event filled with merriment and joy and that your family were happier to have your presence as much as I was unhappy not to have it physically or as consolation in written word. On my return the first desire I had was to cast my eye over your rude beauty that you sent me in photographic form. It was as I expected perfectly arousing making my manhood stand proud and extremely erect at the very rude vulgarity of you and for that my Lady I thank you for the joy that I held gently in my hand teasing sensations from it that I would rather be by your own hand. Your maidenhead is such a raw rude scar of feminine beauty plumply shrouded up and over with such succulent ample flesh that I almost reached out to my screen to touch its soft loveliness. It's the perfect receptacle for my relentless desire for you seconded only my your lovely soft caressing passionate mouth that I so adore to kiss. This beauty this jewel this perfect flower so perfectly framed by such ample and heavenly stockinged thighs and the sensual folding flesh of your ample tummy......... Oh my god I am so filled with the want of touching your body your glorious thighs and to caress your ample tummy to feel you under my finger tips and know that you have given up your body to me for just such pleasures........ I wish to stroke my tongue over you exploring the softness of you and delving into the sensual creases of your flesh. I should like then to know you want the touch of my tongue on the very sexual centre of your being by stroking with you beautiful fingers and painted nails and parting the petals of your flower to exhibit the very core of your lust for my attentions to you total servitude to me. Show me your vulgar desire that I may know your deepest beauty my Lady my slut my slave of great pleasure. If you wish to serve me thus it would fill me with great pleasure, more than my present display for you can show if you would honour me with more revelations of your desire to thrill your Lord so that I may imagine more exactly what it will feel like to have you in my mouth, for I know already the pleasure will be as if I had fought on the battlefield for your honour and happily died and gone to heaven. My Lady **** I await your obedience in this my desire of you. Sir *****, most definitely standing before you, utterly tarnished of armour by your adorable servitude to me. I kiss you deeply my Lady xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

My Lord Sir ***** It is with delight that I was greeted with the news of your return. Unfortunately it is with regret that I confess my christmas was not filled with joy or merriment having been taken ill at first light in the same manner as on our first meeting. However my health and spirits are now much improved. I can only hope that my Lord experience more merriment and good cheer than was felt by myself. Whilst my Lord was abscent from this place my computer did become unusable for a period of time. Having managed to fix the problem with it you can imagine my dismay when it failed to work again less than 24 hours after first being fixed. Luckily I had been chatting online to a computer expert who took time from his purchasing of christmas fare to visit my abode and remedy the failings of my computer. Hence now a week later I am still able to use this piece of equipment which I had begun to fear was beyond help. It is also with mixed feelings that I furnish you with the news that whilst you have been away I have secured employment of a temporay but nonetheless full time nature. I began the said employment on wednesday 20th December. At present I am unsure how much longer this will last possibly another few weeks. I am hoping that this will then lead to further employment of an agreeable nature for me. As it is I am working in the office of the employment agency with whom I am employed. Thus in a good position to prove to them my capabilities and reminding them that when any further opportunities arise I should be their first choice candidate for consideration. This does not help our cause to find suitable time to pursue firstly my chastisement then our mutual fullfillment, however this is something that can be overcome with some planning. Added together my illness, lack of computerised equipment and employment have conspired to make the possibility of a suitable response to your former missives, less than might otherwise have been. Further more in recent days I have re-read your communications to myself in the week leading upto your abscence with the intention of stringing together adequate words to convey my desires to your obvious enjoyment of the promise of our shared attraction. However no matter how many times I have intended to put word with word for your perusal, I feel that my mind is still in such confusion as to render it frozen with writers block. Not from lack of imagination but from the images conveyed from the pages written by yourself my good and only Lord Sir *****. How can I possibly match such erotic and arousing images as already described by my Lord. Welcome back my Lord Your own meek and trusting Lady Slut ***** awaits her instructions for furthering our cause.

***** my Lady, my sweet slut, my dutiful whore, I am saddened to hear of your christmas not being as I would have wished for you and that your technical equipment does not work well for our smooth continuance of our quest, but pray that it is up and running very soon that i may be delighted with further images of your perfect and delightful sexuality it is your desire to share with me. Please, please my adorable vulgar creature, do not worry over much that you feel unable to match my words in reply for I have words for the both of us, I only seek confirmation that you accept them with open heart and delight and crave for more. If you forward any words for me to consume of your inner sexual self and your beautiful mind all those thoughts you would fear I should not wish to hear or that you might imagine unacceptable consumption by upstanding society, know this, I will hear it and I will hear it with understanding and compassion and love and delight that you should open yourself unreservedly to my safe keeping. I adore you now and I will with what ever your deepest secrets you might hold within, for keeping them secret or revealing them, you are one and the same perfect elegant sensual beauty. Know this. To here for you once again fills my manhood with such strength to read your words of continued servitude to my desire of your body and mind, but you must know that to satisfy this urge for you at my own hand is not sufficient and I will that one day you will place upon my firmness your elegant fingers with their sensual sluty painted nails so that I might see the delight on your beautiful obedient face the joy you hold at honouring my hard salutation of your perfect sexuality creates in me. I so desperately wish to see your delicate fingers work from me such pleasures that you could not imagine and to see your red rosy lips enshroud my glistening helmet that you might drink of the nectar you cause in me with your vulgar beautiful sluty perfection. ***** my desire my Queen, I have a demand of you I wish to enact and would like to know firstly if you will hear it and secondly if you will obey me? I await your resolve with great anticipation and hope that you will give me freedom to devulge my desire of you. Sir, you Knight your master ***** xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

mmmmm
I await with bated breath your beautiful and sensual words that do arouse me so. Divulge all you must for I do desire to hear what you will have me do for you. To have my mind carressed by your words of desire for my being both in mind but mostly in body is to set fire to my loin. Your words create an oasis of desire and yearning in this world of mine where I have been surrounded by the sands of desert with no word from my Lord whom my body does crave fullfillment. Please may it be that we can take our desires to a new and fullfilling level at a time not too far distant. Please please oh please my Lord I beg of you do not hesitate to aquaint your loyal and obedient (well almost) lady with your words of wishes and desires. Do not ever think that your words could ever offend my delicate heart, for knowing that my own desire to serve no matter how vulgar, do set alight such desires within my only Lord Sir *****, for whom my body does yeard with a longing not quenched by others. The absence of my Lord from my world has served only to prolong the agony of these base and vulgar desires. There is no lessening of my craving to be your slave in all that you could ever wish, to treat my body as if it trully belongs to my Lord and none other. To share with your lady **** all that you feel you need for complete and utter consumption of my own sexual being. to tease my body in everyway that you could possibly wish before taking my every breath as you vent your growing desire to make this flesh of mine belong as part of your very handsome and sexually inviting frame. Have me do to you what is required to satisfy your vulgar and sexually exciting desires. Use upon my body any props which you feel could heighten first your own then secondly my body and all its base desires.
The sooner you may furnish your loyal and faithful slave with the details of your wish the sooner and more complete I shall become yours.
Sir ***** I am yours from this moment until my usefulness to you may no longer be required. Your only Slut Lady *****

how much sex

Recently it seems that a number of my admirers are under the impression that I have or need to have sex everyday. This I can assure you is not the case. If anyone thought about it I spend far too much time on my pc to be out having sex all the time. On average I probably have sex once or twice a week. As a single woman who has children at home.....I feel that that is fair. ( I have several guys who I have seen several times, it isnt different men all the time) my sex drive would probably cope with every day but my conscience would not. I am still struggling with the amount of sex that I have and even more the amount I would like to have versus what I feel to be acceptable behaviour for a middle class single mum of 4.

What do you think is a reasonable amount of sex for a woman in my situation to be having ?

1) Is a couple of times a week too much
2) about right
3) or should I just go out there and have as much as I want

please let me know what you think

naked delight

Its been 40 mins now since I finished my shower. I sat on my bed pressed the button and the screen lit up, only a minute before my emails were revealed for me to read. My towel has fallen away nolonger wrapping my body in its soft mauveness. I dont much mind as I am alone in the house, my kids are all out mostly at school and the other although not at work has gone to see his girlfriend. I've towel dried my hair and let it just go how it wishes no taming with hairdrier and brush today!! The weather outside is clear and chilly, my window is slightly open and the fresh breeze plays across my skin softly drying the moisture that was still there a moment before. my messenger opens and I see one of my sexual aquaintances has a message next his name asking if anyone wants to play. He is a very fit hot lover and loves nothing more than giving a girl a wonderful time. but today I resist his charms when he asks me what im doing today. we chat for a while before he says he has to go it seems he has an offer to play after all, am I jealous? no just hope he has a good time, I have things to do. I reply to an email or two check my messages on AFF, both my solo account and that which is my joint profile as a couple with my sensual lover who from now will be know as SL. recently SL and I embarked on a second adventure the first being as lovers the second being a couple wishing to expand our sexual experiences and bring others into our circle of sensousness.
I digress I had not intended to expand on that situation during this particular posting. the room is getting a little chilly now and I'm considering the merits of putting on some clothes, however I hesitate to do this as the chill on my skin makes me feel so good ...soooo tingly and excited , I feel a slight dampness which excites me more. I find I have a new email from my tarnished knight, the dampness increases with anticipation of this the latest in our eloquently erotic correspondence. quickly I open a new window in order to read the said email it was indeed a further addition of the best mind fuck I have indulged. quickly I reply letting it be known my current situation excitement mounting in the knowledge that this can only create an even greater desire by both to bring the whole experience to a tumultous and gratifying coming together. I can hardly contain my excitement as I anticipate a reply from my knight to his lady slut. I cant stop wriggling now the dampness has increased the tingle is growing, the coolness of the breeze on my skin does nothing to cool my fever but only helps to increase the feelings running through my body. I am waiting now waiting to cum but not allowing this to happen as I want to wait to see the response to my latest email before I allow my body to release the growing tensions within me. Please my knight dont take too long, put me out of my delicious predicament. I want so much to cum only as I read your words.