christmas

Here is to a great Christmas

for all my friends

Hugs and Kisses to each

and every one of you

XXXXXXX

so sad

last night I text a number of my friends and admirers to wish them the christmas they want. Not all but most have replied. Thats nice that they have taken the time but nearly all have said something along the lines of.....

'I think what I want it to be and what it will be is something very different!'

Now I think that is sad that so many of my friends feel like that.

I am lucky I shall have the christmas I expect peaceful surrounded by my boys and my mother.

christmas

Its christmas eve 7.30am I have no reason to get up early today......no kids football, no car boot sale, I've done my christmas shopping!! Its nice just to lay here in my nice warm comfy bed. Eldest didn't come home last night, he has work this morning but I'm not going to chase him up he has to be responsible for himself he is an 'adult' now.

My phone goes off a text message from one of my admirers.
'morning did the catalogue order arrive. I wish I could help 2 bring you some happiness at christmas xx'
{ He knows I am broke and cant get much for my kids this year relying on catalogue buy now pay later :-( }.
I spent yesterday buying token presents for my kids to replace the token presents that have not arrived yet!!

But I think they are quite happy with the present they got yesterday. Another of my admirers took the time out of his morning to come over and sort out my computers for me. Not only is this one now working but we have sound again (first time in 6 months)

Its at chrismas and times of crisis that we find out who our real friends are.

Last christmas when I was in the early stages of my divorce and being in this house was a living hell, I was still working but broke as we were all living off my part time wages with no contributions from 'him' even though he was still working. Tuesday before christmas I took some time off work to take the boys christmas shopping I was very upset that I couldnt afford much for them. My second son lent me £100 out of his savings to buy them presents. But by the time I went to pay for my first purchase my purse had been stolen from my bag. I was devastated!!
Next day when I was at work everyone was asking what I had bought I had to say nothing and told them what had happened. The day before we finished work before christmas, one lady who has very little herself left an envelope on my desk with £40 to tide us over. Another offered to buy the bottle of red wine from the boss from me (I was going to give it to her anyway as I dont drink red). Then as I was leaving a friend gave me an envelope from her husband with a letter. He is not jewish or even has any other faith but he believes in good will to others. My friend had told him what had happened and he was giving me £200 for as long as I needed it. I have still never met him but we have spoken on the phone and swapped jokes by email. When I got home I had two cheques waiting for me to tide us over (one from my employers and one from my mother in law!!!)
Thanx to these lovely people we did have a good christmas and I shall never forget the kindness of these people.
Last year I though I was broke, this year I really am broke, but we are together, healthy and happy.

we are going to enjoy being together this christmas and there will be no tears or sadness, just smiles and hugs.
Anyone who feels sorry for us I am greatful for your concern but please dont worry. I have the greatest gift I could ask for ....4 happy healthy sons :-)