March

I'm looking forward to the month of March much better than the last two months.
As I posted last night I am going to still see GB. He was busy this morning so we will talk later.
This morning I bit the bullet and emailed N that I m setting him free as I cannot give him the time and love he needs. I hadnt wanted to tell him in this way but I guess my new found confidence doesnt go as far as telling him to his face. but at least it was better than the curt text he used to send me each time.
Both HMU and GP were chatting online this morning. GP making sure that I still want to meet him but changing our date to next thursday as he now has an appointment with work on friday. He is very sure that he wants to get very intimate with me.
HMU sent me the following text after I told him briefly what GB's email said.
'thats good! I'm pleased.... Hope you still want to go to bed with me next week xx'
This is the kind man who was advising me how to deal with my situation with GB.

N has replied that he had thought a lot of me. Then later a second email ……I must think he is an animal in a field if I think he will forget me, I have made the wrong decision. He thinks he wasn’t enough for me. Not good enough for me. Part of me wants to tell him that I am really sorry. But there is no point in me contacting him. I know I shall get emails/text demanding that I return his computer books and disks that he lent me. I know him well enough to know how he behaves towards the woman he has split with.
Today I took my mum out for lunch, she has been stuck indoors for weeks since she had her knee replacement. We went to pub up on a hill with a great view in both directions. From the front it looks out over the city and out to sea, from the car park at the back you get a great view inland across the countryside. When we got inside we looked for a table by the window, most of the tables at the front were reserved. The first sign my eyes noticed was a long table reserved for (it was GB’s surname). At first I though maybe he had booked a table there for his business. But it was not likely as he probably didn’t even know the place it was in the wrong direction for him. But I kept an eye out just in case. It turned out to be a family group.
On friday I shall be having fun with SL and Mr & Mrs P. then on tues I should be meeting HMU then GP on thursday next week. so hopefully March will be a better month for me.

frustration relieved

It was with a mixture of dismay and amusement that I returned to my humble abode following our fruitless drive through wet and muddy lanes and tracks. (my car is now thoroughy muddy). I made a light lunch and went to my computer. I get a message from a friend of a friend on AFF, we have spoken a few times recently, he wants to take some proffesional photos for me as my friend has told him that I dont have many pictures save the ones I took myself. he asks if I would like to meet this afternoon for an hour, we agree that I shall go to his place, we exchange mobile numbers, then shortly after he calls to cancel. Never mind I have things to do. Then I get a call his meeting is cancelled come round now!!. wear something sexy...I still have on the short pink skirt and black stockings of this morning together with sheer white sleeveless blouse over white lacy brassiere. Within 2 minutes of my arrival he has his hard cock out on display for me. Wow I have never seen anything so big, we chat over our cups of tea for a few minutes before he has my breasts out exclaiming how magnificent they are. I am stroking his huge shaft as he fingers my wetness, he wants to take me now!!!! we discuss whether I like anal......something I have only recently been introduced. there is no way that thing is going to go into my ass !!!!!!! He spreads a towel on the floor, he enters my vagina from behind and begins to fondle my breasts alternating with my clit, he offers me his wet fingers to lick my juices from. then he slaps my arse, before muttering that he ahsnt even asked me if I like to be slapped. I tell him that I ahve learnt that I do and he slaps me more first on one side then the other. he slaps harder but still he hasnt slapped as much as I feel I would like. I am worrying by now that it is almost time for me to collect my child from school. I turn around and he comes all over my waiting breasts. we both dress hurriedly and I depart for the school run. I feel gratified that my frustration has been dealt with and I most certainly know that I have been fucked, however it is not an experience I wish to repeat.
these lashes have served merely to remind myself of what I should ahve received earlier and that when issued by my lord these lashes will indeeed be more satisfactory as they are born of our joint fantasy.

now I know for sure

now I know

first now I know why I didn't get a reply to my text he was still asleep. I was alarmed to find him online when I had finished my shower......shouldn't he be on his way here by now!! we speak he apologises, over slept so tired after his journey home last night. Yes he will be over but its going to be nearer 11.30 I tell him to get himself sorted or it will be 12.30 he tells me I am a bossylady and goes offline. spot on 11.30 I get a text ...which number? hes forgotten but he has only been here once before.

I run downstairs to let him in, we kiss several time before we get to my bedroom. it isnt long before we are both lying across my bed undressing eachother. He is still tired and we lay in eachother's arms feeling contented at being together. I kiss him ever so gently on his soft lips, we are so relaxed and pleased to have this time. we are in no rush to get passionate...this is a gentle , sensual lovemaking. but what we both now know for sure is that I am not just wet but I am most definitely a 'squirter'. We both found it so horny discovering the best positions to make me squirt the most. I also now know that I enjoy having my ass slapped and having his fingers dig into the soft flesh of my ass. I think it turns him on more to discover that this is making me cum more. As I am kissing him passionately I ask him to slap me more and dig his fingers in again. I cum again and again I have no idea how many times I have cum, I roll onto my back and he plays with my soaking wet pussy more, my body shudders so much as each orgasm convulses through me. we lay together spent for a while before we both realise its almost time for him to leave. we discuss where I would like him to cum, both agree that it has to be here in this room with me now. As his cock has already given pleasure to two of three options I would like him to cum in my ass, I have recently been introduced to this pleasure. He manages to take some pictures of his cock entering my ass (I now have these too) and comments on the red marks on my cheeks.......mmmm this turns me on more and we both cum together.
Alas it is now time for my lover to go back to his work.......has it really been 2 hours it barely feels like 10 minutes.