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Isabella's sex Meme

I have been tagged by Ro to do this Meme.......should I forgive you I have not yet decided, Ro is a blogger who I have seen commenting on other blogs but only recently ie a week ago took the plunge to go see what he is all about and this is the thanks I get for commenting on his blog......that will teach me, perhaps I should learn to lurk. Only that would be difficult for me as I have trouble keeping my mouth shut or my thoughts to myself.

last photos

Following my challenge for Mulder I felt it would be only fair to post these for those who, like FC don't have the time to trawl my archives looking for these photos enjoy

this will probably be the last time I post any photos like this.

typical

hiya

hello you

hows you?

fine and you ?

crap..............hows your love life?

my love life is fine thank you

oh so hes back then

no hes still away

hes stringing you along I don't trust him

well I do and he makes me happy


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how are you today?

I'm fine how are you?

has he come home yet?

no hes still away ;-(

he will be back soon though won't he ?

He should be back for a week to 10 days soon

thats good you can see him then..................don't worry I am sure it will all work out for you both

I know it will, we both make each other happy


these were two typical conversations that I keep having recently, no prizes for guessing which of the two conversations are primarily with other women and which with male friends.

another variation being

hiya

hi

hows you?

happy

so you are getting lots of sex then?

no
but I am happy nonetheless I don't need sex to be happy that is just the icing on the cake

do you want to come here for a bit if you are frustrated

thanks for the offer but no thanks

why do men feel that I have to be having sex to be happy?
I may not have met Romeo yet but we are getting to know each other intimately, we can and do turn each other on regularly. We don't need to be crass, we don't need to be explicit, we can tease each other. We can encourage each other, we can be there for one another. we can be everything for each other whilst still being in different countries. I cannot imagine not having him in my life although sometimes it feels as though our relationship will be a virtual relationship forever more. But I know this is not the case, I know we will meet very soon and when we do it will be like coming home at last, not just for him but for both of us.

I think the reaction that my male friends have to my relationship with Romeo has more to do with them than him. He lives and works in a world that very few people I know could ever hope to understand as it is so very different to what most of us can comprehend. Yes I did struggle with it the first time I didn't hear from him for a few days. He had warned me in advance that this is what his life is like. He had warned me that if I don't hear from him I shouldn't think he has gone off me. But still I worried about it, I was swinging from thinking he had ditched me to trying to believe in him. Then I made the decision to trust him. What have I got to lose by trusting him. He isn't after my money, he knows I don't have any. He may be after my body, well if thats the case then great because I am after his. Just thinking about him makes me wriggle and squirm with lust for him. There is nothing he could possibly want from me that I wouldn't happily give him.

My colleague said on Friday that I shouldn't worry that I might not be good enough for Romeo (Ok I might have done for a while but not now). But maybe he won't hit the mark for me. He commented that I have got a lot riding on this working with Romeo. My theory is that it will never work if I am not positive about it so I am giving it 95% of my trust and reserving 5% for caution.

This is not a conventional relationship, we are learning about each other from the inside out. It started with a mental connection, for me the physical attraction didn't come until later as I resisted the temptation to see a picture of him for several weeks until we both knew that we wanted there to be an 'us'. We both like what we see. We both like the person we are getting to know. We have not gone down the road of likes and dislikes, it doesn't matter to me if he prefers tea or coffee. It is more important that we both feel like teenagers, we cannot go to bed without making contact or else feel as though we ahve lost an arm each. He loves my open honesty, I love his generous spirit, he thinks I am a strong woman, I think he is a very caring man. I won't go into everything we have learnt about each other.

Our phone calls are so very dear to me, just hearing his gentle voice has me melting, he likes to hear me squeal with delight at some suggestion he makes. If it wasn't for these calls then maybe I would be more cynical about all this, but the calls make everything so much more real. He isn't just someone hiding behind a computer screen he is real, he is gentle and sexy and everything I know him to be.

my birthday

I have just filled in my birthday on am application that claims to tell you what your birthday says about you well here is what it says about me and I think it is pretty accurate which surprised me.


You are gracious, elegant and prudent. People admire your qualities and some even become jealous of you. You are realistic, flexible and adaptable. You are remarkably kind and moral person. Your Love, You are willing to sacrifice yourself for the one you love. Your lover will always have your gentleness, care and loyalty. You will always be happy to hand around the one you love.

stolen from Ronjazz

Greed:	Medium
Gluttony:	Low
Wrath:	Very Low
Sloth:	Medium
Envy:	Low
Lust:	High
Pride:	Very Low

The Seven Deadly Sins Quiz on 4degreez.com

I should be blonde

I have been exchanging some lovely text with Romeo today first some early this morning whilst I was at work then again some longer ones tonight. My poor baby is very tired and couldn't stay awake after his week in eastern Europe. He still isn't back in Uk but at least he is back to a place with a decent signal so he can text.

I ahve been having a blonde day today since those early morning text that lifted my spirits so much.

I ahve been sending faxes to telephone lines then when I send to the right number I send the wrong thing.
I have bought £15 in petrol, paid with £20 note then drove off without my change.
there have been other things but those are the funniest. My work colleagues have noticed that I wasn't quite myself today. Oh and I drove home with my reading glasses still on my head, now why did no one tell me.

By the way if you didn't notice................





I am happy :-D

hyacinths of love

As I sit here I can smell them. The scent is getting stronger.
According to OJ they smell like cat pee. He has no romance in him.
What I can smell are the two white hyacinths I bought a couple of weeks ago. I was out shopping one evening when I decided to treat myself to some flowers. Then I decided on a plant instead. I ended up buying a pot with two hyacinths.

The romantic in me decided that these two plants represented myself and Romeo. I could watch the plants grow just as our feelings were growing. Now they are both 80% open but whilst one is growing upright the other is leaning at a right angle away from the first. does this indicate that we are not on course to be together.

The other day as I was going about my business I suddenly heard Romeo's voice in my head. He was telling me that I should

'Sing like you've never sung before,
Dance as if no one is looking,
and Love like you've never been hurt'

I also heard him telling me

You are a very strong person who can deal with these trials and tribulations.

So even though I have not heard from him for a week I know he is with me. I just have to trust him. I have to believe in us. When he escapes from his present work situation he will return home and we can show each other that the wait has been worth while.

From Oncology to Oxford in one day

today I am feeling much happier in myself

my appointment at the clinic went well except that I have to go back in 12 months time. when I came out of the hospital I had a text from DC 'final written warning' so that was a relief he still has a job but for how long until he does something stupid again. OJ has been to see about Universities, he has brought home a stack of prospectus's including the one for Oxford which is where he is now aiming for.

I had a long chat with my mum this morning and saw her again later while she talked to OJ about Oxford and the possibility of him going into law, He is thinking of becomong a Barrister. As my mother knows some Barristers she will contact them to see if she can arrange a visit to their chambers.

During the afternoon I saw an Angel shopping in Asda. Yes thats right I did say Angel, she is a retired lady who I knew from my previous work. Three christmases ago whilst I was going through the nightmare of my divorce I had no money to buy presents for my boys. OJ lent me £100 from his savings to buy presents, but before I could even buy one my purse was stolen from my bag. The police think it was a gang of Romanian's, I mentioned it next day at work to warn my collegues. Next day this Angel who was semi retired and lived alone left an envelope on my desk, containing £40 and a note telling me to use it on the boys and to only pay it back as and when I could, she was only sorry it wasn't more. I mentioned it today after we had caught up with each other's news. She told me that the money hadn't mattered to her. (I had paid it back as soon as I could). but to me it was so overwhelming that she would do that me me and my boys.

I have not heard from Romeo, but I am alright about that today. Having agonised yesterday over whether I should still send him text and emails today I sent hima lovely light hearted email telling him all my good news. After all before he went away he had warned me that there would be times when he couldn't contact me but that I should still send him text and emails which he would pick up when he could.