Its MY bed!!

Its my bed so why does this happen?

I moved out of the room in september 2005 and back again in May 2006 after the ex moved out in april and I had fumigated the room stripped out the carpet, bed and anything else he had left behind.

My new bed arrived and I had put it up got out all the new bedding I had bought. I had thrown out everything I had shared with SF( shit face).

I hadn't intended to move back into the room before it had been decorated. But I couldn't wait to have a decent bed once again. I had spent 3 months on the sitting room sofa before swapping with my eldest son and sleeping in his single bed for 5 months.

Strange I had the whole double bed to myself but I kept mainly to the right side as I had done for too many years. At this point N was with TB but we had been speaking on msn and I had sent him a picture message showing my new bed.

A few weeks later N was back with me and now that SF had gone and the boys had known about N for over 4 months already I brought him home to meet them. He stayed for a few days. We had a few very unpleasant visits from SF (had to call police). But thats another story.

N naturally slept on the left of the bed as is his habbit at his place. Of course it wasn't long before N went back to TB. I still kept to my side of the bed but was gradually using the whole bed I would leave my book, cd and dvd players on that side within easy reach. Over the next couple of months N came and went a few more times. Until July when we had our big bust up.

I didnt sleep in my bed at all for a week instead staying up late at night chatting online then getting one or two hours sleep on sofa. I just couldnt face my bed.

Gradually I did get back to my bed, and over time (months) I started to spread myself out more until I found that I was using the whole bed just for me. I had also begun to sleep on the left side more, mainly because my bedside cabinet is on that side. Some nights I was on the left sometimes the right and other times in the middle.

A few weeks ago N and I got back together. On saturday night I allowed him to come to my house and he stayed over night. He of course slept on the left. I have now found that the last couple of nights I have gone back to the right side. I hasn't been a conscious decision, I just feel that it isnt right to be on the otherside. But why not it is MY bed I can sleep wherever, however I want.