How

I am trying to sort out in my mind how this is going to work
months ago I would talk on msn to this man I consider to be my friend, I could tell him anything. He liked to know about the men I met. We talked about what I got up to, we talked about how I felt about them. he helped me work out how I felt and what I wanted to do. but that isn't happening any more. I still consider him my friend, we talk on msn. I still have tales to tell but don't. How can I tell this man about others that I meet. How can I tell him what I get upto. How can I tell him how I feel. How can he help me work it all out. Currently there are two men I am seeing as fuck buddies, one local one not so local. the first is very sexy and its all about sex and go. The second is more a friend with benefits. sex is just an ingredient in our time together. but how can I talk to him about these two men and the others that come and go from time to time. how can I talk to him about my married lover who I cant see due to circumstances but we still exchange very hot text and manage to see on the few occasions it becomes possible. how can I talk to him about the attached man who I lust for who plays such a big part in my last 9 months although we have
not met in person for 7 months. how can I talk to him about the man who is onstantly in my mind. how can I do this now. I talk to others about this but I cant talk to him anymore. We talk and its good but we talk of mundane. we dont talk of sex or emotion or feelings. I miss that connection we had.