Its tough

Sometimes its tough being the one left at home

If you have been reading me in the last 6 months you will be aware that I am so in love with my Romeo.

I know most of you are amazed after my history over the last couple of years especially since I began this blog, that I am determined to be faithful to Romeo.

I never said it would be easy.

Sometimes I find it so frustrating that he is away for such prolonged periods.

I am after all a red blooded sexual woman.

I have my sexual needs and they just are not being met.

This does not mean that I am giving up on Romeo.

Don't get me wrong, sexually Romeo is everything I could ask.

Just because I am in love with him it doesn't follow that he is the best lover I ever had.

I was prepared for him to be a good but not necesarily a fantastic lover.

He is amazing, the best sex I have ever ever had, and I have had some great sex

The problem is not the quality of the sex we share but the infrequency of it.

That is where I begin to struggle.

I can go weeks without being bothered

But then I get aroused (it can be anything that sparks that off)

Then I crave the male attention I had become accustomed to.

Shameless in my flirtation

It could be an exchange of emails, text messages or IM

The more the flirting goes on the more aroused I become which then leads to finding any way I can to find a release from my torment.

Scouring the more sexual blogs looking for stimulation

The throbbing in my pussy becomes more urgent

I need more attention more flirting

I begin to think about more than flirting

Can I do something about this

Can I seduce any of the men I flirt with into satisfying me in the way I need

I know I need to keep a rein on my needs

I know I can't give in to my carnal needs

If only I knew for sure when Romeo will be in my arms again.

My body aches for the touch of a man

The taste of a man who wants me

If he takes too long my determination might break down

Am I being unfaithful if I indulge in sexual exchanges by text, IM or email, if I don't actually meet the other person?

Am I being unfailthful if I meet another man for sex but we don't fuck?

Have you ever been unfaithful to your partner?
If so was it with just one person or a variety?
If you have never been unfaithful have you ever considered it?
would you be unfaithful if you were confident you would not get caught out?
What reasons do you have for being unfaithful?
Is it because sex at home is unsatisfactory or non exiestent?
Is it because you are a man and men are made that way?
Or is it because you met someone you just could not resist?

just a little flirting

Last night I was feeling quite low but I found myself getting involved in a spot of email flirting that went on until the early hours. It wasn't Romeo unfortunately, it wasn't even sexual, but at some point after midnight I did find myself feeling aroused, probably due to the unexpected attention. Yes I did have a little play which was very satisfying and by 1am I was becoming sleepy, to his disgust I fell asleep before I could read his last email telling me that he was going to bed.

Please don't tell him that he had got me aroused enough to break my abstinence from playing. can we keep that as our little secret please. Oh but you can tell him I did enjoy flirting with him.

cocks

last night I was chatting to Sammy, we first began chatting back in april. but in all this time I have had no idea what he looks like. We flirt a lot........he reads some of my fantasies, he thinks I have an incredible body and mind. Not that he really has any idea what my body is like just the bits I have chosen to let him see.......nothing too intimate. Now the flirting has taken on a slightly more urgent flavour recently. a few weeks ago just before he went away on business I seem to have agreed to meeting him which was not what I had meant at the time.

Now hes back and the flirting has continued but to a slightly more intense level although I am still being light hearted.

A couple of nights ago I asked him to describe himself to me. He told me his height then went quiet. last night I asked him again to describe himself then I get a picture on my mobile. I didn't save it as it was of his erection.

Now I have a problem with this. why is it that so many men think women want to see pictures of their cocks.

I get sick of being sent these pictures. I dont send every man I talk to a picture of my genitalia so why should men send them to me.

I have been on forums saying that I don't like them.

when I was on AFF there were lots of men who think it reasonable to have a picture of their erection as the main profile picture.


when I first heard from SS he sent me a picture of his cock with a message asking me to please give him a chance. I told him if he wanted a chance he should change his picture. If we were ever to meet I wouldn't recognise him from this picture unless he was stood in the bar with his trousers around his ankles. he very quickly sent a facial picture.


my response to the picture Sammy sent me was to put up a picture asking him why he sent a picture of this.





he very soon sent me a facial picture.......so why can men not do this in the first place. Ok so I do like cocks but not as an introduction and I would far rather have one in my hand than on my phone.