return of the knight

My slut, my Lady love my meek and obedient chattel I shall take my leave of you now with heavy heart because having seen your beautiful maidenhead it is all I can do to stop myself coming to you secretly at the dead of night to ravish your beautiful ample body and relish in your creative and promiscuous mind .......................... I wish to do things to you that will fill your body with joy and have you give it to me unreservedly. It is mine now in my mind and I shall enjoy you with a passion so devine so loving so creative so vulgar so debased that should you know it you would think you were in heaven with all your senses heightened to such degree, just to look into my eyes would make you climax so intensely it would be as Niagara falls covering us both ................... Your knowing master Knight of your body and soul Sir ***** now wishing you joyous festivities, but desperate to meet you once again to fuck you mind and body with intensity :-x

My Lady slut **** Your Knight of tarnished armour wishes you an extremely happy and rewarding new year on every level imaginable. I trust your christmas was an event filled with merriment and joy and that your family were happier to have your presence as much as I was unhappy not to have it physically or as consolation in written word. On my return the first desire I had was to cast my eye over your rude beauty that you sent me in photographic form. It was as I expected perfectly arousing making my manhood stand proud and extremely erect at the very rude vulgarity of you and for that my Lady I thank you for the joy that I held gently in my hand teasing sensations from it that I would rather be by your own hand. Your maidenhead is such a raw rude scar of feminine beauty plumply shrouded up and over with such succulent ample flesh that I almost reached out to my screen to touch its soft loveliness. It's the perfect receptacle for my relentless desire for you seconded only my your lovely soft caressing passionate mouth that I so adore to kiss. This beauty this jewel this perfect flower so perfectly framed by such ample and heavenly stockinged thighs and the sensual folding flesh of your ample tummy......... Oh my god I am so filled with the want of touching your body your glorious thighs and to caress your ample tummy to feel you under my finger tips and know that you have given up your body to me for just such pleasures........ I wish to stroke my tongue over you exploring the softness of you and delving into the sensual creases of your flesh. I should like then to know you want the touch of my tongue on the very sexual centre of your being by stroking with you beautiful fingers and painted nails and parting the petals of your flower to exhibit the very core of your lust for my attentions to you total servitude to me. Show me your vulgar desire that I may know your deepest beauty my Lady my slut my slave of great pleasure. If you wish to serve me thus it would fill me with great pleasure, more than my present display for you can show if you would honour me with more revelations of your desire to thrill your Lord so that I may imagine more exactly what it will feel like to have you in my mouth, for I know already the pleasure will be as if I had fought on the battlefield for your honour and happily died and gone to heaven. My Lady **** I await your obedience in this my desire of you. Sir *****, most definitely standing before you, utterly tarnished of armour by your adorable servitude to me. I kiss you deeply my Lady xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

My Lord Sir ***** It is with delight that I was greeted with the news of your return. Unfortunately it is with regret that I confess my christmas was not filled with joy or merriment having been taken ill at first light in the same manner as on our first meeting. However my health and spirits are now much improved. I can only hope that my Lord experience more merriment and good cheer than was felt by myself. Whilst my Lord was abscent from this place my computer did become unusable for a period of time. Having managed to fix the problem with it you can imagine my dismay when it failed to work again less than 24 hours after first being fixed. Luckily I had been chatting online to a computer expert who took time from his purchasing of christmas fare to visit my abode and remedy the failings of my computer. Hence now a week later I am still able to use this piece of equipment which I had begun to fear was beyond help. It is also with mixed feelings that I furnish you with the news that whilst you have been away I have secured employment of a temporay but nonetheless full time nature. I began the said employment on wednesday 20th December. At present I am unsure how much longer this will last possibly another few weeks. I am hoping that this will then lead to further employment of an agreeable nature for me. As it is I am working in the office of the employment agency with whom I am employed. Thus in a good position to prove to them my capabilities and reminding them that when any further opportunities arise I should be their first choice candidate for consideration. This does not help our cause to find suitable time to pursue firstly my chastisement then our mutual fullfillment, however this is something that can be overcome with some planning. Added together my illness, lack of computerised equipment and employment have conspired to make the possibility of a suitable response to your former missives, less than might otherwise have been. Further more in recent days I have re-read your communications to myself in the week leading upto your abscence with the intention of stringing together adequate words to convey my desires to your obvious enjoyment of the promise of our shared attraction. However no matter how many times I have intended to put word with word for your perusal, I feel that my mind is still in such confusion as to render it frozen with writers block. Not from lack of imagination but from the images conveyed from the pages written by yourself my good and only Lord Sir *****. How can I possibly match such erotic and arousing images as already described by my Lord. Welcome back my Lord Your own meek and trusting Lady Slut ***** awaits her instructions for furthering our cause.

***** my Lady, my sweet slut, my dutiful whore, I am saddened to hear of your christmas not being as I would have wished for you and that your technical equipment does not work well for our smooth continuance of our quest, but pray that it is up and running very soon that i may be delighted with further images of your perfect and delightful sexuality it is your desire to share with me. Please, please my adorable vulgar creature, do not worry over much that you feel unable to match my words in reply for I have words for the both of us, I only seek confirmation that you accept them with open heart and delight and crave for more. If you forward any words for me to consume of your inner sexual self and your beautiful mind all those thoughts you would fear I should not wish to hear or that you might imagine unacceptable consumption by upstanding society, know this, I will hear it and I will hear it with understanding and compassion and love and delight that you should open yourself unreservedly to my safe keeping. I adore you now and I will with what ever your deepest secrets you might hold within, for keeping them secret or revealing them, you are one and the same perfect elegant sensual beauty. Know this. To here for you once again fills my manhood with such strength to read your words of continued servitude to my desire of your body and mind, but you must know that to satisfy this urge for you at my own hand is not sufficient and I will that one day you will place upon my firmness your elegant fingers with their sensual sluty painted nails so that I might see the delight on your beautiful obedient face the joy you hold at honouring my hard salutation of your perfect sexuality creates in me. I so desperately wish to see your delicate fingers work from me such pleasures that you could not imagine and to see your red rosy lips enshroud my glistening helmet that you might drink of the nectar you cause in me with your vulgar beautiful sluty perfection. ***** my desire my Queen, I have a demand of you I wish to enact and would like to know firstly if you will hear it and secondly if you will obey me? I await your resolve with great anticipation and hope that you will give me freedom to devulge my desire of you. Sir, you Knight your master ***** xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

mmmmm
I await with bated breath your beautiful and sensual words that do arouse me so. Divulge all you must for I do desire to hear what you will have me do for you. To have my mind carressed by your words of desire for my being both in mind but mostly in body is to set fire to my loin. Your words create an oasis of desire and yearning in this world of mine where I have been surrounded by the sands of desert with no word from my Lord whom my body does crave fullfillment. Please may it be that we can take our desires to a new and fullfilling level at a time not too far distant. Please please oh please my Lord I beg of you do not hesitate to aquaint your loyal and obedient (well almost) lady with your words of wishes and desires. Do not ever think that your words could ever offend my delicate heart, for knowing that my own desire to serve no matter how vulgar, do set alight such desires within my only Lord Sir *****, for whom my body does yeard with a longing not quenched by others. The absence of my Lord from my world has served only to prolong the agony of these base and vulgar desires. There is no lessening of my craving to be your slave in all that you could ever wish, to treat my body as if it trully belongs to my Lord and none other. To share with your lady **** all that you feel you need for complete and utter consumption of my own sexual being. to tease my body in everyway that you could possibly wish before taking my every breath as you vent your growing desire to make this flesh of mine belong as part of your very handsome and sexually inviting frame. Have me do to you what is required to satisfy your vulgar and sexually exciting desires. Use upon my body any props which you feel could heighten first your own then secondly my body and all its base desires.
The sooner you may furnish your loyal and faithful slave with the details of your wish the sooner and more complete I shall become yours.
Sir ***** I am yours from this moment until my usefulness to you may no longer be required. Your only Slut Lady *****

New year

2006 has been a remarkable year for me.

January: I met and fell in love with a man my own age ( most of my previous partners had been older than me). He helped me to escape the trauma of my divorce, whilst at the same time showing me that even though I am now much larger than I was before I had my children I could still be desirable. He showed me that my life is not over and certainly not my sex life. If anything he couldnt keep up with me. Called me a nymphomaniac!!

April: finally the courts made my husband vacate our marrital home and transfer the tenancy into my sole name. 3 days later our Decree Absolute came through. I was now officially single again.

July: the final straw with my lover when he decided to mess me about yet again and told me to take my ex on the holiday we had booked together!!! Not the smartest thing he could have said to me.

To get him out of my mind I joined AFF and my journey began.

October: The court case where I was the only witness in the case against my husband for harrassing and threatening to kill me and my lover. He had chosen to go to crown court so he could prove I am not a credible witness (apparently I'm mad) then the case would fall apart. On the day of the trial he agreed to admit guilt and has accepted a restraining order keeping him away.

November: I teamed up with one of my lovers to become a 'couple'. Through this new adventure I began chatting with The Man who encouraged me to read his blogg. I was hooked immediately. Then I began to think maybe this was something I could do. With more encouragement from The Man I began this blogg. I have really enjoyed writing it and chatting to the new friends I have made through it on both sides of the pond. I am totally amazed at some of the things I have written. I didn't realise I had it in me. I will let you decide how much is real and how much is imagination.

December: Finally I am getting myself sorted. I am now committed to an IT course which will help me find a new and better job. then in the week before xmas I began working full time at the employment agency. I hope this will lead to a more permanent position and I will be able to get my family's finances back on track.

2007 will be my year. I am putting all the rubbish of previous years behind me and moving onwards and upwards. who knows I might even find the happiness I deserve. If not I shall just continue to enjoy the search.

May all my friends have a HAPPY AND FULLFILLING 2007

frustration

I have met some one, there is a new man in my life! we met through the same web site as all my other lovers, admirers and friends. I have had a lot of fun and enjoyment not just meeting but sometimes just chatting to all my new friends online. No matter how much they might want me they all understand that there are others. I have two lovers who I see at least once a month more whenever possible (not at the same time). there are others I see from time to time. Most of my new friends including my lovers are married. None of our relationships are exclusive. Now I have met GB, and I like him, yet again a married man!! however the difference is that he wants me to be his, he doesnt want to share me with other men.

Ok I have no problem with that, if he wants me to be his exclusively. It wont stop me from chatting, flirting with my other friends. but if he wants the kind of relationship where I don't see others, providing that he can show me that he is worth the sacrifice, that is what I shall do.

I have now reached a stage where I want someone for me. Someone who wants just me, who will be there for me when I need/want them. someone I can devote my affection to. GB and I have corresponded by email and text, we have had conversations by telephone ( I love to hear his voice). We have met, we have explored each other, we have chemistry. But there is something missing. Something vital is missing from this relationship. Something which is causing me to question whether I should go with this relationship or just make it plain that I have no intention of giving up my other lovers for him.

What is missing? what is it that is so vital that we do not have?

TIME!!

As I said he is married.....he has assured me that he can see me whenever I wish to see him. this has proved not to be the case. Not only is he busy with his family and his business, he has been away a lot. He is away now. It doesnt stop the flow of text and emails, but it does mean that we are unable to spend any time together.

I want to see him, indeed I need to see him again, I want to be everthing he wants. I want so much to go on this journey with him. But at what price? I am feeling lonely and frustrated.

should I remain his exclusively (my joke about finding out if anyone else is about this weekend didnt go down too well). Or should I just tell him straight that if he wants to see me then he has to share me. Then I can go back to seeing others with a clear conscience that I am not deceiving him or anyone else.

tagged !!!

Ok so I have been tagged by the man with secrets. I have to compose a list of 10 words beginning with the letter P.

My first has to be phone as I am totally lost without my phone, even more than my computer. I never go anywhere without my phones (yes I have two, one general which is pink and one for my closest lovers).

Promiscuity, how could I possibly leave that out when I have been practising promiscuity in recent months. I have a lot of years in the sexual desert to make up for. I had no idea how much I would enjoy my promiscuity.


Polish, I do like to wear nail polish, especially if it is red, although I do also wear purple nail polish. My collection also includes mauve, pink, gold and beige together with chocolate brown, but as most people who know me will realise I have a thing about red.


promise is something that most of my photographs show. I prefer to give a glimpse of the promised fruits rather than putting everything on display from the beginning. The pleasure I have gained from allowing my admirers a taste of things to come. Promises are also something I never give unless I am absolutely certain that I can and will want to fullfil those promises.


Planning can be both exciting and boring. Planning a trip to the dentist with my children is boring. Whilst planning a meet with a lover can be exciting. Planning an illicit meeting for delicious sexual enjoyment of each other with a married lover gets my pulse racing as we decide the logistics of our time together. When we can snatch enough time together, where we shall go, how to get there(seperately or together). what we will wish to take with us for the pleasuring of our partner.


Punishment, anyone who reads my blog should know by now that I am still awaiting my punishment. I have promised my knight that I will take my punishment in good faith. We have tried to put our plans for my punishment into practice but were foiled by the dog walkers of this land. We then had a drive around country lanes looking for potential venues for my punishment to be carried out at a later date.

potential, something I try to see where ever I can in the same way as I look for the positive in everything. I am constantly looking for potential venues for my adventures. Not to mention the ever changing list of potential lovers.

pure woman, that is what I am now, in my youth I was something of a tomboy, I was never a girlie girl, playing with cars in preference to dolls, climbing trees rather than having pretend tea parties. But now I have matured and realised the pleasures to be gained by becoming a woman. I am nothing now if not pure woman with the wants and pleasures of being seen, felt, smelt and devoured in ways that a woman such as I deserve.

Perfume is not something I wear too often, prefering to wear it on special occasions, it is more my practice to wear body spray(vanilla). I do have a rather delicious perfume which was given to me by one of my brief love interests. Prada is absolutely devine, I dont wear it for any of my lovers but there are occasions when I will wear it just because I love the scent. Or if I have been feeling sad I may spray a little on my pillow. For years my favourite perfume was Opium but I cant wear it anymore. During a conversation with a potential lover a few days ago he described perfume as 'something that kills married men'.


Persistent is how I would have to describe some of my admirers, especially when chatting online and they want me to go onto my webcam. persistent is also my kids when they want to use the computer and Im on it grrrrr.


I hope that is good enough for you Man. 10 words beginning with P with a few extras added in for good measure.

Now who can I tag?

Feetman letter D

Footprints L

cherrie R

looking forward not back

Over the weekend I was thinking of going to visit my former lover. I thought about taking him a christmas card, I was going to drive over to the city where he lives and push it noisily through his door. I wanted him to open the door and invite me in, I wanted him to ask me to stay. I wanted to spend one night over the holiday in the arms of a lover. He was my lover from 2nd jan 2006 until end of July then again a few more times since. But it would have been a mistake. In the end I just sent him a text wishing him and his family a good christmas. I have not had a reply which is probably for the best. Now I can close that door and move on. He was the reason I began my sexual journey in the summer months. He taught me that I could have a good sex life after my marriage broke up and for that I shall be forever grateful. The rollercoaster ride of emotions he led me on was another thing. But finally we got to the stage where I was the one calling the shots not him. Since he realised I wont just come running everytime he clicks his fingers and that he is not the only man in my life he has gone off in a strop. I dont need that!!
I could have gone running after him after the last time but I have stayed well away. I believe that everyone comes into our life for a purpose, he has served his and now I dont need him and his tantrums anymore. I wont forget him and a small piece of my heart will always be his. But I have a lot more to give just not to him anymore and I believe he has realised that he has missed his chance.

Now I shall look forward, forward to new adventures and new loves.

gifts

***** my Lady
I have been unable to devote my time to commit my thoughts to you my Lady love and for that I can only apologise for your waiting.
You are my perfect slut, my woman of loose morals, my Queen of all that is deliciously indulgent, beautifully sensual and blissfully vulgar. Will you stop at nothing to honour your knight and champion of her womanhood? I pray that you will not for I would adore you the more for it my Lady.
The gifts you bestow upon me are perfection and I look upon your face with such delight, your warm friendly eyes with there naughty twinkle, proud, confident in your sexuality. Your soft warming smile that bids me kiss your inviting lips with such passion that I might make your breast heave with intense desire for me.
Such a pleasing face, such a perfect bosom. Would that I could hold them in my hands and suckle from their firm peaks the life giving nectar you so wondrously gave your children. You are pure woman to me, you are life itself and I wish to be on you and in your and about you oh so intimately it begins to hurt the distance we keep from one another.
I look upon that face and I will you to kiss my manhood as it stands here waiting and wanting for you. To look into your eyes as you salaciously slide my soft firmness past those perfect lips into your . Oh how I would wish to kiss those lips at that very moment. Take me my Queen, make me your very own Knight as you milk from my weapon my lusting devotion to you so that I may kiss you and taste upon your lips my spent lust for you.
Take me, feed on me, kiss me that we both might swallow the pride I have in your wayward sexuality and make you mine to command further........................
Until then my Lady Sir ***** :-x



Sir ******
How could your Lady slut ignore such pleas so well written and the desires already aroused described so wonderously. I now give over to you these two glimpses that you may know what there is to come.
be rest assured that there are more images that may or may not come into your possession in the near future.
your own Lady ***** Slut


***** my bounteous Maiden I feast upon your other gift to me and fear that what intensity your countenance provoked in me at such acceptable imagery before, this latest one instills me to such vulgarity that I know is in me and committing me into a place beyond redemption. I fear my Lady teases me to the brink of acceptability and am challenged my Lady, to take you by force, first making you incapable of resistance by way of ties upon your ankles and your wrist, enabling me to feast my eyes upon you at will as I slowly discover parts of you that should be kept to your own self. Thus with ties tightened to extremes of distance, you would find yourself at my mercy and indignantly exposed to view that part of you that would prove you woman against my man as well as that physicality we both share having stripped you of the modest vestige of your apparel. At such a sight my mouth would water and hunger would set in for the taste of you and would put up no fight to prevent me from compromising you in any way shape or form, to which end you will know me on you vaginally and anally as my tongue and lips forage about your intimate person kissing and licking and at that moment when sucking you feel me gorge on your lips as I fill my mouth with you sliding my tongue deeply into your womanly folds as well as you adjacent tightness. The feast would be long and hard as my hunger is so great since meeting you first and when satiated by the depths of you, I shall gently lick and suck of your soft delicate flower that I may know for certain you to be less than pure an unadulterated slut to expend upon my face such violent gushing and thrashing of self evident pleasure. It would not stop at that for with all the wetness and glistening about your intimate person I would be drawn by the shiny puckered tightness of you and wish to do to you the most joyous vulgarity and in so indulging in your predicament would press upon your defense until knowing my helpless Lady is indeed a true slut to me her master by way of letting me into her for such a devine unnatural act. I would that you should look into my eyes and witness the pleasure of letting you see how debase I am to want you thus. Watching as we both enjoy in one another's debasing act of intimacy as I bury my sword gently to the hilt my Lady, to press your ample thighs tight against me for a while as I relish in the moment ......... then with controlled movement take me to a place where my expression tells you you have served your master well (and perhaps he has served you well too?) as you watch him expend deep inside you his warm wet sticky lubricating lust for you in each and every deep felt intense ejaculation and if in total communion with one another you should also join your master in this moment of high ecstasy he would be well pleased to see you in such a state with him. My Lady, in your arms I'd fall to care and comfort to caress and fondle to express an intense gratitude for such devoted servitude that would no doubt lead to a love making of such passion as to render us coitally inseparable. Until that moment your Knight awaits your body with aching desire :-x

yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes and..........yesssssssssssssssssss

as soon as I read how you would take me my lord my maidenhead was instantly soaking with lust. Until I can compose myself to reply to your lust with equal enthusiasm as is so very much deserved I shall I am afraid have no choicce but to keep my lord waiting for my remarks on the satiating of our giving from one to the other. I could not possibly do justice to your words at this time. my cranium is in such a state of arousal that coherent thoughts are missing. Unless I manage to sort my thoughts into some kind of order before you remove yourself for the festive season it is with dismay that I inform your goodself that my lord must await my words upon his return. :-X :-X :-X

*****, my lady love It pleases me no end to know that the debased nature of my mind has thrown yours into confusion and placed you in such a state of arousal as to render you demented and void of natural cohesive thought. You are a truly magnificent liberated sexual woman and to find you so wetted by my vulgarity arouses me so enormously that I fear I shall burst involuntarily my lust for you and thus sadly wasting the evidence that I so desire to plant deep inside you, filling you up to the brim with my joy of you that you can contain a drop more allowing it to cascade from you decorating your heavenly thighs giving me the filthy joy of wallowing in the wetness we both create, sliding slippery indulgent over one another''s flesh in an orgy of blissful filth. My Lady love, you take me to a place all decency tells me we should not go and I adore my Queen for it and await a time when you are composed sufficiently to reciprocate my filthy vulgar adoring desire in words of utter arousal. My sadness is that I may not know it until my return, but my mind will be busy with thoughts of you penning your desires to me and of the exquisite pleasure felt between your thighs in the exercising of that deed. I should not wish to bid you fare thee well just yet as I may have a moment or two to dwell on the drip of you that it may fall before I leave you. The admiration of your Knight is boundless at your response to his abuse of you and I pray it will be short lived the space twixed now and when I take of you in the flesh rather than words.

Your liege, Sir ***** who you desire to obey :-x

Yes my lord (she muttered meekly)

so sad

last night I text a number of my friends and admirers to wish them the christmas they want. Not all but most have replied. Thats nice that they have taken the time but nearly all have said something along the lines of.....

'I think what I want it to be and what it will be is something very different!'

Now I think that is sad that so many of my friends feel like that.

I am lucky I shall have the christmas I expect peaceful surrounded by my boys and my mother.

christmas

Its christmas eve 7.30am I have no reason to get up early today......no kids football, no car boot sale, I've done my christmas shopping!! Its nice just to lay here in my nice warm comfy bed. Eldest didn't come home last night, he has work this morning but I'm not going to chase him up he has to be responsible for himself he is an 'adult' now.

My phone goes off a text message from one of my admirers.
'morning did the catalogue order arrive. I wish I could help 2 bring you some happiness at christmas xx'
{ He knows I am broke and cant get much for my kids this year relying on catalogue buy now pay later :-( }.
I spent yesterday buying token presents for my kids to replace the token presents that have not arrived yet!!

But I think they are quite happy with the present they got yesterday. Another of my admirers took the time out of his morning to come over and sort out my computers for me. Not only is this one now working but we have sound again (first time in 6 months)

Its at chrismas and times of crisis that we find out who our real friends are.

Last christmas when I was in the early stages of my divorce and being in this house was a living hell, I was still working but broke as we were all living off my part time wages with no contributions from 'him' even though he was still working. Tuesday before christmas I took some time off work to take the boys christmas shopping I was very upset that I couldnt afford much for them. My second son lent me £100 out of his savings to buy them presents. But by the time I went to pay for my first purchase my purse had been stolen from my bag. I was devastated!!
Next day when I was at work everyone was asking what I had bought I had to say nothing and told them what had happened. The day before we finished work before christmas, one lady who has very little herself left an envelope on my desk with £40 to tide us over. Another offered to buy the bottle of red wine from the boss from me (I was going to give it to her anyway as I dont drink red). Then as I was leaving a friend gave me an envelope from her husband with a letter. He is not jewish or even has any other faith but he believes in good will to others. My friend had told him what had happened and he was giving me £200 for as long as I needed it. I have still never met him but we have spoken on the phone and swapped jokes by email. When I got home I had two cheques waiting for me to tide us over (one from my employers and one from my mother in law!!!)
Thanx to these lovely people we did have a good christmas and I shall never forget the kindness of these people.
Last year I though I was broke, this year I really am broke, but we are together, healthy and happy.

we are going to enjoy being together this christmas and there will be no tears or sadness, just smiles and hugs.
Anyone who feels sorry for us I am greatful for your concern but please dont worry. I have the greatest gift I could ask for ....4 happy healthy sons :-)